<---This says it all, (in the simple version). I just simply love that man of mine. He can make me smile on the saddest day, and he can make my smile bigger on the best day!
This would be a more descriptive version --->
And it still does not say everything I feel. I do try to tell him as often as possible how much he means to me. I remind him frequently that he melts my heart with a glance. I try to spoil him here and there to let him know he is appreciated.
And although we are far from perfect, we are perfect for each other. I have never felt more sense of belonging. His faithfulness makes me feel unconditionally loved and respected more than I have ever been. This blog may not seem to have much of point to those reading it...but it gets the message to my husband, and that is all that counts.
So ladies, there is nothing wrong with letting your husband know how special he is to you. Share it often and speak from the heart. I think it makes for a stronger, happier marriage. Here's to the rest of our lives...I love my husband.
I don't know about all of you, but I plan to stay married to my husband for the rest of our lives. Yes, this is a second marriage for us both...but when you finally get it right, well you just don't want to lose that. We are not anywhere near what society would call perfect, and I am just fine with this.
According to Merriam-Webster they define perfect as: being entirely without fault, corresponding to an ideal standard. Now I don't want to necessarily stand out, but I am not really a "fit in" kinda gal either. The same goes for my husband, except the gal part of course, lol. Sure I like some of the same things as others, be it clothes or a hairstyle but I am far from conforming! I constantly complain that I need a new style, and to be honest I am not sure I actually have a style to change, lol. But I am OK with that, and so is my husband.
No matter what image I have myself in my head, it obviously differs from my husband's image. I know that all men think they are obligated to tell their wives they look great, the tell them they are beautiful, that they don't need to change a thing. Now in a woman's mind, she is instantly thinking, "liar"...I, like most women will always have little insecurities about ourselves. I too doubt at times when my husband gives me a compliment. But its not a strong doubt, its more like, "Huh? For real?" And most of the time, I actually believe what he is saying to me. Not because I am overly confident, lol...but because he makes me feel that way. And that folks it why I am never letting this man go!
I can say without a doubt that I am married to the most handsome man in world, just looking at him sets the butterflies off in my stomach. Hearing his voice, ahhhh! Goose bumps! I am not sure if he thinks exactly the same thing about me, but I am gonna guess he kinda likes me since he is still with me, lol. My whole point to this blog is when you have that perfect person, (and I do!), hang on to them. Even if there are days you don't see yourself as a great catch, just remember, they do! You might not be everyone's cup of tea, but when you are just right for each other you over look the chips and imperfections...
I believe every marriage is a work in progress...and mine is no exception. We are not perfect, we have to work at things and from time to time we suffer from miscommunication once in a while. All in all, we make it work...and well I might add! I think that is because we started out as friends. We got to really know each other and learn a lot about what makes each of us tick. We learned of each others' past, the good and the bad.
Unfortunately, the bad is what I seem to have an issue with from time to time. From both sides...the bad on mine is the the being cheated on, neglected, left to do it all, being abused, just overall being treated terrible. The bad on his, hearing of his past "sexual experiences" and relationships, which sometimes in my mind make him as bad as my ex. I know this is not true, but its my mind so sue me. You cannot always help the way you think, especially when your mind has been treated so badly for years. At times I appreciate my husband's honesty and other times I just wish he had just kept it to himself.
I realize my husband's past is the past, but we have dealt with crazy women from the past rearing their ugly heads and causing issues, which is not good. One incident really and truly hurt me. It just stirred up a lot of unwanted memories and makes it even more difficult to get my own past out of my head. And try as I may, sometimes I cannot help but to wonder if my husband is going to do as my ex did. That sounds horrible, doesn't it? When I think of that, it makes me feel terrible for even thinking my husband is capable of hurting me like that. I know deep my heart he never would, but that past can be a real bitch sometimes.
I think I tend to read too much into actions that are nothing. I dwell on things that really have no meaning, and I allow my feelings to be hurt way to easily. This is where the miscommunication part comes in. Although it is the topic of this blog, it is a very small part of our relationship. I do not want to this to come across as a huge issue or as a daily issue that we have.
I cannot express how incredibly happy my husband makes me. I cannot put into words how wonderful it feels to be married to him, how lucky I am to have found someone that makes me feel this way. I just know this, I have never been happier or more content than I am now. Which is why these feelings about the past truly bother me. I don't know if this is my brain's way of trying to protect me or trying to confuse and hurt me. Sometimes I feel like I am in a huge struggle with my own head. Sounds silly, huh? I just want to forget my past, forget his past and live our happily ever after. How do you shut off the past?
If I have heard it once, well actually, if I hear it again I think I will scream...but as they say "Your past makes you who you are today" Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! See, told you I would scream, lol. I realize I am a stronger person today because of what I dealt with in my past, blah blah blah...but damn it! Why can I not get the bad out of my head?! When does that part go away so it does not reflect on current life? I am tired of remembering my past, and I am tired of making others suffer for it. It is not fair to any of us.
I am open to suggestions, I will try almost anything. All I want is my happy ever after, the wonderful marriage I deserve and for us to enjoy growing old together. I love you my wonderful husband...forever and always.
